What kind of person is immune to falling in love? Are they that strong? Or their hearts were made of stone? Does that mean only the weak fall in love?
When I fall in love, I tremble at the blare of his ringtone, finding myself weakening at the sound of his voice. When he paces towards me, my heart just wants to make a run for it but my feet are frozen. When he looks at me, instinctively I look away, although all I wanted to do was just gaze into his eyes for hours and hours, if I could.
Love is not a fairytale. It is a reality with many sacrifices and hardships. And if I hadn't loved for Him, I had never loved. It is the utmost importance, in any degree of love, love with sincerity and with niyyah lillahi ta'ala. InsyAllah kullu khair.
Despite the complications, at the end of the day, your feelings won't change. Unless, it is His fair decision to change your heart. Keep prayers in your pocket, Allah is always near to grant them.
I confess, loving has not been easy. Sharp words slip, misunderstandings, raised voices. And for awhile I just took them in, I still forgave him. A man's heart is rock-hard, not too forgiving. Being a woman, just be the one to apologise. When he is the fire, you be the water.
To become someone's spouse, I must be able to obey, lower my head and lower my heart to my husband's wishes. The obedient wife is promised Jannah. That is the greatest gift anyone can ask for.
But of course some men are gentle by nature. Not too fussy, don't get angry easily. Some are very submissive. May Allah bless them. To those who are less of that, you'll find your way.
Anyway, no matter the hardships and the pain, love stays. Where else can it go? At one point, you can get so mad at someone. Slip of the tongue, jealousy and whatnot, but when you just sit down to clear out your mind, and notice his picture on your wallpaper, your heart just cools down.
You realise you can never stay angry at him. That each time he pushes you away, you just want to be closer. Every time his words hurt you, you want to heal him. For every sorry he does not say, you say it for him. Some people say love is just crazy. But what is it really? Isn't it just love? And I'd do anything for it, I wish you could just see that, bae.
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